And then I found out how hard it is to really change.
Even hell can get comfy once you’ve settled in.
I just wanted the lonely inside me to leave.
No matter how fucked you get, there’s always hell when you come back down.
The funny thing is all I ever wanted I already had.
There’s glimpses of heaven in every day.
In the friends I have, the music I make, the love that I feel.
I just had to start again.

Oliver Sykes, Hospital for Souls

There’s nothing left in the air tonight
No more sparkle in your eye
Words left unsaid from weeks before
Leaves an ache that I cannot ignore
A heart laced with regret and scarred with pain
A love that will last is hard to attain
As I lay in my bed, letting my heart slowly sink
Thoughts run through my mind, I can’t help but think
Years from now I don’t know where we’ll be
But I sincerely hope that you’ll end up with me

Love to me meant the world
But not anymore
I once fell in love
It attacked the blind spots of my mind
Leaving me vulnerable and sensitive
I used to write beautiful things
He was the inspiration for it all
Now he’s gone and so am I
My mind is blank
Unable to put the pen to paper
Or the keys to typewrite
My mind isn’t as colorful or creative
Without the element of love in my life